Cataclysm-X

Hey everyone,

As you probably have noticed I don't post much on dA anymore.

I have made the decision to leave this account for what it is. All my content will remain (artworks, tutorials, journals), but my art won't be updated on here anymore. I will come online to find new stock photos for references, and ask for permission etc. But new art updates? No more.

Since I have made this decision for myself, I feel like the pressure on my shoulders has gone. To me personally, dA is not the same anymore. It has helped me grow as an artist, and I cannot stress enough how grateful I am for the neverending support that has been given to me over the past 15 years.

dA has also brought me a lot of tears. When my stuff got popular, some people started to attack me. They said my work was fake, unworthy, and talked behind my back on different social media. I got stalked too. It triggered my anxiety, depression, OCD..

Art has been my saviour since I got diagnosed with multiple chronic illnesses when I was very little. Unknown people, whom I had never met, attacked me because of the drawings I made for MY pleasure, for MY recovery. Over 8 years I had to deal with this hate, until it was enough. And that hurt so deeply, my health had gotten so much worse (dangerously so) that I got an artblock for over 4 years.

2 years ago I began drawing again, but did not want to upload on dA. It did not feel like a safe haven anymore. Instead, I found my way on Facebook, Twitter and Instagram. I may not be as popular over there as I am over here. Far from it. But I feel so much safer and happier, and more inspired than I have ever been before.

If you want to look me up, you can find me here. I love to chat with any of you over there:

Facebook:
FACEBOOK

Twitter:
TWITTER

Instagram:
INSTAGRAM

So there, this is the end of the line, isn't it? I feel... relatively relaxed as I write this.
It is ok to let go. And that's what I am doing right now.

Stay safe everyone xxx and look me up on different social media if you like 
Thank you for all the support and love.

With all the love that I possess,
xx
Nic

Hello lovelies

Like the title suggested... I am on YouTube AT LAST. Took me bloody long.

You can find me as PencilHQ! With this account I want to post all sorts of pencil related info, such as:

• tutorials
• reviews
• speed drawings
• real time drawings

Hey there my friends.

It has been a while. I kept trying to come back, but failed so far. Here's the real reason:
Every day I used to get thousands of views, comments, questions. I loved it, I loved helping you. I made those drawing tutorials to show my gratitude.

But after years and years, at some point dA started to consume my entire life. It was ridiculous. The amount of comments, faves, views... it was getting ahead of me. It gave me anxiety, severe depression, because the obligation to fulfull people's needs and expectations was too big. 

Then one day... after years and years of being addicted to the attention I got here on dA, I decided it was over. Done. So I left dA for my health.


When I tried to come back, it just didn't work. It's mostly because I didn't like the way dA had changed over the years. I missed to out look, the people, the atmosphere on this website. I couldn't help it. I couldn't stay, no matter how much I tried.


Facebook, Twitter, Instagram and soon-to-be YoTube became my alternatives. But... I noticed, people kept coming back to dA for my tutorials, my old work, and asked qestions.


So now I am trying again! I never stopped drawing, after I left dA. I got plenty of stuff to show.

I am going to clean all the thousands (over 8000 of them) of leftover messages and notes. I am sorry if you wrote me and I never replied. From here on, I shall try my best to answer your questions, but I won't be able to answer all of the comments anymore.

That being said... I hope you are all doing great to those who never left me: thank you it means everything.

Cheers my friends! xxxx
Nic