.: My Own Worst Enemy :.

We are our own worst enemy.


I wonder what people think of me...


_{Evil: as if they care
Good: they always do
Evil: you're not unique, copycat!}


But I just like to draw things and stuff.


_{Evil: you're not even original!
Good: at least you enjoy what you do}


Right...


_{Evil: but you won't accomplish anything in life with drawing}


Oh...


_{Evil: you suck major a$$!!! hahahaha
Good: that's not true. You can draw and create things lots of other people will never be able to do.}


Could be... but what if-


_{Good: Shush! Don't bring yourself down like that. You're making yourself sick.
Evil: but you already are
Good: you know what I mean
Evil: sure, as if talking to yourself is healthy}


I'm losing my mind here...


_{Evil: Mission accomplished
Good: Stay strong...}




No matter how secure someone may seem to be, there's always one person who can make you the most insecure and weakest person on the entire planet... And that person is you.


I've had a lot of self esteem issues. It made me doubt about who I am. About what I can do. It makes me feel sick.


Luckily I got a lot more stronger and don't give a crap about what people think of me, but still... there will always be someone who can make me feel bad. But I try not to give in.

(That's why I always try to stay optimistic and make other people happy as well!)


Anyway, there are symbols in this drawing that represent good and evil. Or at least it represents opposites of things. Good can be evil and vice versa if you don't know how to handle these things in life.

I tried to colour the drawing but yeah... I'm not very good at that

And it was weird drawing myself differently x) but that's another story. I've had enough of myself for now lol.




Stuff used

2H, H, HB, B, 2B 0.5mm mechanical pencils

tissue and tortillions for blending

my own pictures

imagination

kneaded + pencil eraser

A4 Hahnemühle Nostalgie sketchbook paper

Photoshop for coloring

Time spent: too much! I don't like drawing my own face xD