l Note Me
Dear artist friends
It feels a bit uncomfortable to upload something, even if it's just a journal, on deviantART.
I can't believe I have been offline for almost 6 months now. I hope you guys and gals can still remember me..!!
First thing I want to mention, is... that I am a dog owner now!
I got a doggy from the doggy Shelter. He's a mixed breed, a Dachshund mixed with a (Welsh?) Terrier it seems. He's super adorable. He brings a lot of smiles on my face, which I missed. I missed being happy, until he came around.
His teeth are crooked, and he has a dragon-like moustache, which is why I named him lil Dragon
. He's the love of my life
I may or may not post a drawing of him sometime.
Change of Plans
As I have explained in my previous journal
, I can't and won't be online as much as I used to be. But it doesn't mean I haven't done anything creative at all.
Currently I am working on mythological wooden boxes, which I make as gifts and for myself. Yesterday I posted 3 pictures on my Facebook page. The link can be found at the top of this page.
That being said, there is something that I have to get off my chest, and it won't be easy..
After almost 10 years of being a member of DeviantART, I have come to realize that perhaps dA is not the place for me anymore. People's expectations had caused to what it seemed a never-ending artblock. I felt like I had to live up to people's expectations all the time. Draw what they like. And if I were ever proud of a personal artwork, and it didn't receive much feedback, I felt like I failed miserably as an artist and as a person. My personal projects reflect my personality, and so I felt disapproved. I am definitely NOT accusing you, but accusing myself for neglecting my feelings. This is how I felt all along.
I am a perfectionist. I always have been. And after some thinking within the last 12 months, I realize being a public art figure is not what I strive to be(come).
"So What does this mean?"
you may wonder.
Either at my 10th anniversary at deviantART, or after my current subscription ends.. I shall leave deviantART.
I want to be less active on social media, and be more out there in the real world. Expose, draw, paint, connect, create things!
My Facebook page wil remain the same. I shall upload there more often than here on deviantART. But for me, it is time to let this place go and move on.
All I could do is to ask for your understanding. You made my stay at dA so wonderful.
Until that day comes... I will try to upload a few things
I am not gone yet.
I love you all. Thank you for being such wonderful talents and admirable people
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